Reflective moment - Make that a whiny moment

A friend's dad passed away this morning (sonofwhale.wordpress.com). It has me in a very strange mood. It wasn't that long ago that we lost my FIL to cancer (jtscancer.wordpress.com). We're still crossing each significant date with renewed mourning & rememberance.

MIL & FIL's anniversary is coming up. I remember last year on their anniversary he was in a rehab hospital and unable to do anything for her. Unfortunately, my Papaw passed away just days before, so we were unavailable to help them celebrate. MIL knows how much he loved her even though he had a hard time showing it sometimes. Aside from his faith in God, she was his rock.

Man, there has been a lot of loss this year. Of course there has also been some amazing blessings - one in particular, little miss Sweet P.

But even blessings bring stressors. Adding up stress points from the Holmes Stress Point Scale, over the last year, I'm sitting around 350. I think if you go over 200 in one year, it's not good.

And DH's job is requiring too many hours these days. And my house is a wreck. And my two year old is - well, he's two. I've got my first sinus infection since having sinus surgery in April. P1 is still recovering from his sinus surgery 2 weeks ago. And ... wah, wah, wah ...

I really wanted to take a moment to reflect on what kind of legacy I want to leave my kids. Reading about "Whale" & his family, makes me hope I make even half of the impact that he and his wife clearly made with their kids. Instead, I've fallen into a piss & moan session.

Maybe another night I will be more inspired.

Blessings to all.